I can't give you the courage to stand up to me
and say you don't give a flying fuck about what I think.
Everybody's oppressed by somebody else in some form or another.
Most of us learn to fight against it
despite people's opinions without the help of others.
And stop trying to wring some kind of admission of guilt out of me.
Agreeing that you were born just the same as I was born
isn't gonna save your dying friends.
That is exactly what is going to save my dying friends.
You make it sound like I'm the enemy.
I am beginning to think
that you and your straight world are our enemy.
I am furious with you!
And every goddamn doctor who made me feel it
was sick to love a man.
I am trying to understand
why nobody gives a shit that we're dying!
$5 million for a house? We can't even get 27 cents from the city.
I know 43 guys who have died
and you say it's my cause not yours?
You still think I'm sick!
I simply cannot allow it for one single second longer.
I will not speak to you again until you accept me as your equal!
Your healthy equal!
and my best friend Harvey died last night.
We went everywhere together, you know?
看百老匯的劇 火箭女郎的舞 還一起滑冰
Like Broadway and the Rockettes and ice skating.
He was a beautiful skater. I'm a klutz.
But he didn't care.
We had so much fun.
Damn it, I wanna do something!
Even though all my lesbian friends say,
"What have you guys ever done for us?"
But I don't care.
This is for Harvey.
拜托了 告訴我 我能有點用處
Please... tell me you can use me for something.
I need a hotline director. You think you can do that?
- I don't know how. - I don't either.
I have this tradition.
It's something I do now when a friend dies.
I save his Rolodex card.
What am I supposed to do?
Throw it away in the trash can?
I won't do that.
No, I won't.
That's too final.
Last year I had five cards.
Now I have 50.
A collection of cardboard tombstones,
bound together with a rubber band.
I hate these fuckin' funerals.
I really do.
And you know what else I hate?
I hate the memorials.
That's our social life now.
Going to these things.
Nick was a choreographer.
I don't know if any of you knew that.
He was just starting out.
He didn't tell a lot of people.
He was waiting to invite you
to his big debut at Carnegie Hall or some shit
so we could all be proud of him.
But he was so good.
He had such promise.
We're losing an entire generation.
Young men at the beginning.
All those plays that won't get written now.
All those dances never to be danced.
In closing, I'm just gonna say I'm mad.
I'm fuckin' mad.
I keep screaming inside, "Why are they letting us die?"
"Why is no one helping us?"
And here's the truth.
Here's the answer.
They just don't like us.
Once upon a time there was a little boy
who always wanted to love another little boy.
One day he finally found that love
and it was wonderful.
I'm supposed to use gloves.
I'm supposed to do this. I'm supposed to do that.
I'm supposed to not kiss him.
I'm so sorry.
I'm not supposed to be only 45 years old
and taking care of a 35-year-old young man
who's 100 years old and dying.
Emma calls it a seesaw.
He's fine, he gets sick,
he gets better...
he gets sicker.
God help me.
He's afraid I'll leave him.
I told him I wouldn't leave him.
That I never for one second would think of leaving him.
But he doesn't believe me.
It's hard to believe in much these days.
But we must never stop believing in each other.
I'm a mess. That's what I am.
You cry and you cry until you think can't cry anymore
and then you cry some more.
Not only for yourself or Felix, but for all the little boys
who finally found their other little boys
they've wanted all their lives now that we're men.
I've spent 15 years of my life
fighting for our right to be free
and to make love wherever, whenever.
And you're telling me all those years
of what being gay stood for is wrong!
And that I'm a murderer.
We have been so oppressed. Don't you remember?
你不知道我們不用躲 沒有愧疚 大膽去愛
Can't you see how important it is for us to love openly,
without hiding, without guilt?
Why can't you see that?
I went to the top of the Empire State Building.
Okay, I'm taking you home.
You can jump off from there when nobody's looking.
好了 米奇 我們回家吧 就現在
All right, Mickey, let's go home. Right now.
奈德 我不是兇手 我不是
Ned, I'm not a murderer. I'm not.
All my life I've been hated for being gay,
for being short...
So go ahead, you tell everybody.
Tell everybody that we were wrong and I'm sorry.
Someday, somebody's gonna come along
and they're gonna stick the knife in you
and tell you everything you fought for your whole life is shit!